“Look, look outside” someone excitedly instructed. I’d been sitting in front of my computer for hours and still internally berating myself for not getting anything done that day and it was already 4:30 p.m. With hesitation and curiosity, I stood up walk over to the double glass doors that opened to the upper level balcony.
I was struck and momentarily seduced by the colors of the day bleeding into what was about to be night. The shades of blue, gray, white, hints of pink and many other shades breaking through as the day was slipping away at that moment.
I instantly forgot about beating myself up for what was and was not completed and had appreciate what I was seeing (and of course snap a picture). It is also times like this when someone interrupting was a welcome reminder to be present and appreciate the view that is unfolding right in front of your eyes.
Do you have moments like that? Where the reminder to be present was louder than the call to plan for a future that has not happened yet? This slice of a moment is also a window into how my New Years turned out. I had pieces of the outfit and stunning jewelry picked out along with amalgamated images of what New Years was going to be, then it just happened.
The clothing was unexpected-in fact an old sweater, corduroys, and a fancy coat to be exact. The destination ended up being some place between a little bit of first night at North Hampton; eating black eyed peas for good luck with friends on the actual day of new years; and the transitional bridge that included mild conversations in a house tucked away in the woods with near and dear ones as I got a chance to witness teenagers celebrating their new years with a camp fire, laughter and acoustic guitar. For those teens, it seemed to be that simple –as they seemed to just enjoy what was as opposed to being frustrated about the visions of a New Years celebration that was not.
These images provided a certain stillness and a reminder. You see, I don’t do resolutions and I have long stopped that madness that felt more like self-defeat. Instead, it has become appreciate the little bit towards the better everyday. That is what these moments were, little bits and pieces of 2014 reminding me that 2015 was in fact a new year but also just another day for a new beginning.